Falling in love is one of the greatest feeling in the world especially when you fall in love with the ONE person that loves you back. It’s crazy how much I love love now because love, whether it be a feeling towards family members, friends or that special someone wasn’t something I was really into. I guess this happens when you realize at a very young age that love was just a word people throw around anyhow as long as they get what they want. I guess coming from a broken home would do that to one. I never really cared for love after that so much so that I even hated romantic movies (I kinda still do till now?).
I remember the first time my mum said “Love you” to me, I was so surprised, shocked even. I didn’t know what to do I quickly said it back but now that I think about it, I did it out of reflex. I remember wondering if she was addressing me because I was totally not expecting it at all. Now she tells me she loves me everyday and it always makes me feel comfortable and safe. I also remember when my uncle told me he loves me after the end of a call and also when my closest friend said it, I remember thinking what is wrong with this people, what is happening ?.
“I love you” is something my family says to each other all the time. I mean we only six in my family and that includes the extended family as well (God, mum, uncle, sister, myself and my brother) so of course we gonna love each other. Saying we love each other all the time made me really curious about what love actually is? I found the answer.
Love suffereth long, and is kind; love envieth not; love vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up. Doth not behave itself unseemingly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. Love never faileth.
1st Corinthians 13:4-8a
Reading tgis had me sitting and meditating on it because it might not seem much but that is actually the truth about love.
Falling in love is something I haven’t experienced yet but it’s something I’m looking forward to it. It might seem crazy that I can’t wait to meet my ONE and have babies and a wonderful family especially when I have experienced lots of broken relationships and even come from a broken home. But weirdly seeing those relationships fall apart made me realize that nothing is perfect especially love and that you have to work hard to make a relationship work. You have to compromise, trust and listen.
My love for love began to grow and I found myself rooting for love in series (I’m still weary of romantic movies). Watching those series and reading more romantic books made me realize that for every relationship to work Communication and Trust is key. You have to trust your partner at all cost and always communicate Never assume they know what you are thinking and don’t ever jump into conclusion.
I see my man having lunch with a beautiful lady and they are laughing, I also see the woman touching his arms and laughing extra hard, I would walk up to them, kiss my man telling the lady he is taken, and if I have nothing to do, I’m gonna squeeze myself in between them situate myself into the discussion. I’d do that rather than go home home and begin to imagine what didn’t happen, leading to a fight. Never assume anything in a relationship, talk about everything especially what’s bothering you, do not bottle things up expecting your partner to magically know what is bothering you and fixing it.
Since my idea and definition of love changed, my outlook on it changed as well, I can’t wait to feel that love everyone talks about. To see that person and keep getting butterflies in my tummy. To have someone you can tell everything to, someone that you are ready to compromise for, someone who is there for you even when you don’t want them to be, someone who annoys the heck out of you but you still love them. Even when you old and wrinkly and grey, you still see that person beside you. To have someone that is your permanent gossip partner. It must be great to have someone you still love after a fight whether big or small, someone you are willing to do anything for.
I love love so much and I can’t wait to fall in love. To be with someone that puts a smile on my face whenever I think about him. I am happy I understand what love is now and u cannot, CANNOT wait to experience it.
I hope y’all get to experience love as well cause as I’ve heard, it’s a wonderful feeling and for those who are already in love, I hope it lasts a lifetime.